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The Loss of Reason

She needed a Shut. A complete barricade from this hypothetical world of good and bad; to an empty field of nowhereness. She realised she had gradually begun shedding her covers of innocence and truthfulness. A mirthful girl changing into an enigmatic elf. Human voice no longer interested her. Deep inside, the turmoil was growing extravagant that she knew she needed to hide. The speedy waves could otherwise wash away everything. She had been harmless all her life, but was now growing into eternal, intriguing mysteries. Dark places gave her solace while populated places haunted her. Her heart became a secret garden with high walls. Sunsets fascinated her more than sunrises. Was she hallucinating? Her wide eyes gazed a faceless object she craved for. But what did she crave for? Did she yearn for a vacuumed space? Oodles of questions clouded her mind for which she did not seek answers for. This day was different. She did not have the fortitude to face the truth. The feeling when you don’t know where you are heading towards. She could not find any reason to stay optimistic.

Panting exhaustibly she stood still at the crossroad
Behind her laid an arduous, rugged journey
Her imponderable hands shivered, prying restless
Like the turbulent water on a full moon light
The lips parted, muttering, to quenching her disunited oblivion
And vision blurred by those hazy droplets
A chaotic rhythm grievously foraging solace.
A numb scream jolted her throat, uncanny unheard outbursts
She needed a leak to breathe, to evacuate the stupor around her
Back there, she collided phantasmic walls
Those vacuumed spaces handcuffed her soul
She decisively deserted the arid land and drifted
Chasing traces of her unfinished portraits
Musing over this juncture, she stands scruple
Red eyes raging from loss of reason.

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